Not Friends

Sometimes
It needs to be said
That you and
I can’t be friends
If you know what I mean.

It’s not that hard to understand
I’m hoping that you feel the same
There’s no way I can play this game.

We’re not friends,
We’ve never been,
So don’t come
Knocking again
You know I won’t be here.

So take your things and go away
Shut the door and let me say
I’m glad that you’re not gonna stay.

It’s over
Don’t think it ever
Started so now
I’m glad that I can
Breathe again…

What’s so hard to understand
I hoped that we could feel the same
But it was just… a game…

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Lyrics to a song I just wrote, melody is down... I just need music and stuff now and will re-record everything when it's done. Don't be too harsh with your comments on the words as I knocked this out in 15 minutes.

You know what's the best thing about procrastination? The fact that you just KNOW everyone around you is doing the exact same thing. But this also works as a backfire because then you're thinking "Oh, he's not studying right this minute... so I don't have to either." and you all end up putting it off even later.

Procrastination is a bitch. A never ending cycle you just cannot break because it's a habit inherent in your genes.

Myself, though? I thrive on the adrenaline rush of the last minute. Why do today what you can do tomorrow? lol

Time to make a decision.
Choices are hard,
but letting things go on
the way they are
will hurt more.

So give me your answer.

Or cut me loose.

It hurts. It actually physically hurts.

I've been so down all day, I woke up feeling like shit and I thought that a shower and a cup of tea would make it go away but it's still here. I don't know why... no, I lie, I know exactly why I'm feeling like this today.

It's him.

And the fact that there's nothing I can do about it, except make things worse. Like I already have.

I've dug myself into this horrible hole where I just cannot see the way out of. My only options are to hurt those around me, and to do that... means I'll be out of this hole, but I won't have the thing that I want.

Should I?

Just rip the band aid off and get it done with?

Tell him that there's no future between us cos I'm still stuck on the other guy, even though the other guy doesn't want anything to do with me.

It would certainly be better for him. It would hurt for a while... but he'll get over it. Rather than hurting him later on...